You mignt wonder at this statement. However, do not forget, part of the D'Arielle Ideal was to prevent waywardness. Seeing the way this material affected our girls and having observed closely what it did to my nieces, I became determined to learn for myself how it felt. I then made a short nightgown, rubber sleeping bag diaper. cloth diaper and panty, such as we would chastize a girl with and applied them to myself

It did not take long for me to feel like I did when Auntie Charlotte did what she did to me when I was five. All the memories came flooding back. As then, so now. I wriggled helplessly. This only made it worse, on my nipples, tummy, thighs, knees (I was covered up to my chin) and special area. Worse still, wriglling about just maede me wriggle about even more and with greater energy. It came to a head and I had waves of feelings rush though my body. Thses were the same feelings that I got from Auntie Charlotte save that I at least, much to my shame, enjoyed the feelings with Auntie Charlotte and save that this time the stength of the feelings was a humdredfold, though I had made myself forget that to preserve the feelings that I had been made a victim and should hate her for it. This time, the feelings were so strong that I was consumed by them with no sense of my own person and the intensity and distracting nature of them was totally and horribly unpleasant. Had this been a person doing these things to me, it would have been rape. I also understood my need to dress in a chaste manner.

I had been unaware that I had been screaming and crying. Only the feelings in my thoat and the drying tears told me that these had happened. At length, still sobbing, I fell asleep, I slept fitfully, Aunt Charlotte returning to me in my dreams and taunting me about how I shall always be her baby girl.

I awoke and lay there for most of the next day, devoid of any motivation and wondering however shall I get myself free of this material, its dry sliminess giving my body the feelings I had come to despise and fear as bad or worse than the soundest spanking. I tried to avoid moving but soon the feelings, and wriggling, returned with the same result, I now became aware that when the momemet of crisis came I wet myself and realized that I had done so the first time. I despaired of ever being freed from this horror and sobbed. I had almost resolved to discontinue using this on our girls; almost but the thought of the wonderful comeuppance that it gave for their aggrevating and depraved behavior was the perfect fit. I also thought I might keep Christina-Marie dressed in this manner all the time for her haughty and miscreant ways. Then I realized, too, the depths to which I cherished my Diamantine and what this had done to her. I reolved that I shall do my best to keep her near to my heart and hope that she would do likewise with me

It was then that the Tall Lady came and said, in her own language, a pretty speech that sounded like a mix of French, Italian and Portuguese, along with some other elements that connoted rather than clearly identified, their meaning. "Oh Lady Veronica. I see our little gift has had its toll on you." She giggled but helped me free myself of it and she lovingly cleaned me and we shared some tea and long conversation.

This personal rubber experience convinces me that each girl needed to have her own rubber experience to its fullest measure to bring to her, by using her body, the awareness of her needs to avoid waywardness.

I determined that each girl in our care would, in the earliest years possible be made to take the fullest measure of what this material can do on her body. certainly by the time she becomes four years of age, she should well understand what this material feels like and what the results of bad behavior are. Of additional value is the fact that it is used as part of infant care; this will aid in the girl's disomfiture by "babifying" her. I shall gather those of the D'Arielle Ladies Society and we shall investigate ways to administer chastizements of this materaial as well as ways to use it on the body but without the full massage but at lesser still feelable strength, perhaps this ought be the sole material that our girls ought be made to wear, both inner and outer garments, It would mark them in the sight of all as being made to understand the depth of humiliation and special care that they are being given for their depravities, both real and potential. However, the material does make up into some cute clothes that would just add sooo much to the adorableness of a little girl both to see and touch.

Howeve, to require that the girls be made to wear rubber all the time may not be that efficatious, as allowing the return to cloth garments would give them something to aspire to.

Now, what girl does not need to learn to fear the "Rubber Fairy"? We have even needed to use it upon our beloved Diamantine on occasion.

I asked what became of Christina-Marie and Dians said that "She had become such a wretched person, Aunt Veronica said, that the Tall Lady came and took her to herself in her own land and she was never herard from again. Pity, I enjoyed hearing her sobs and cryings, it gave me a sense of satisfaction".- Sandra